There are cracks appearing in my veneer, the thin facade I present to the world is being shattered by the emotional turmoil and mental exhaustion inside me. I no longer focus on the good in me or in the world around me. I withdraw from those I love because I don’t want to contaminate them with my negativity, my sorrow, my guilt.
My daily life is becoming consumed by sleep as napping is a socially legitimate escape. Others may wonder why you sleep so much, but they rarely question you about it and don’t wake you up.
My heart is breaking; my mind is breaking. I have no soul as it fled long ago from the too many unanswered questions in my world. I am not suicidal, but sometimes I wish I was. Perhaps an eternal sleep would bring some peace of mind.
I just want to hide. I want to be alone. I want no expectations of me. If I don’t find a way soon then I will simply dissolve and ooze from the cracks.
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